I feel like most if not all people are never honest with me
Sept 12, 2021 19:12:37 GMT
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Post by tuxedomarty on Sept 12, 2021 19:12:37 GMT
Pardon me for another rant already after only one day, but things that have happened this month so far adding up to other things that have happened earlier this year are really frustrating me. The USPS is losing my packages, some scumbag some how was able to use my bank account in some way to charge me for stuff I never purchased, this dickhead who said he was glad he met me, couldn’t stand to see me upset, promised me free fanart if I needed it and promised me he would be a better friend than others who threw me under the bus and never associate with those people broke every promise he made me and withdrew every single offer he gave me when I first met him only two months before he blew me off. These things all add up, you know? And as I also said in the past, I feel like whenever I am happier or in a better mood than usual, someone or something always messes it all up! When I got Tiffany Grant to record that personal message earlier in the month and send me that autographed stuff, I got excited, and I was actually feeling good for once! But then I discover those fraudulent charges on my bank statement and it just kills my mood completely. And back in July when I made that music video I posted about here back then, the day after I posted it, I was being hassled by another person who screwed me over because of some dickhead who was impersonating me that thought really was me when it wasn’t, and was still publicly mocking me and posting personal details about me on social media and again, it killed the mood for me after how good I felt the day before from how well received the video I made was so far. I feel like if there is a Heaven above, whatever higher power there is up there just doesn’t want me to be happy and whenever I am happy, that higher power seeks out to make me miserable. And because of people like that person who told me he was glad he met me back in January and told me he couldn’t stand to see me upset and would be a better friend than others breaking those promises and blowing me off, it makes me feel like almost everyone I know is never honest with me and/or secretly ridicules me behind my back when I’m not looking and that I am just being played a fool all the time. It’s like somebody put a curse on me or something. How am I supposed to cope with all of this? I try tuning the bad shit out, and on the rare occasion that I am able to tune it out completely, some twist of fate always puts me back at the forefront of what I am trying to tune out. My mother would do this to me too when I was younger. I’d be happy and in a good mood, and she would always do shit to ruin my mood.